Some nights my dreams are strange and wild,
Often walking in the night, out in cold deserts,
Deep within woods, standing at unknown summit.
Why am I so often alone within these dreams?
I am never alone within a dream,
Always there is some Other with me,
Dark Presence, Companion, Angel
Watching, always watching.
Upon waking, it is images that remain,
Sometimes for a minute, then forever gone.
Other times the dream returns again,
Triggered by a word, singing bird, taste of Earth.
They come, they go, these dreams seem to long
To be more fully understood—
Carry a message in languages I do not speak.
But I pause and wait. Speak to me….
Each and every one is luminous,
Brings a light from greater darkness,
So much unknown, unknowable inside of me.
I am as a boy holding a telephone. I am deaf.
I am an altar boy standing in a graveyard,
But the dead have disappeared.
They come when I speak their names—
And the litany of names is so very long.
When I awake, I translate the pain in my joints.
I drag my chair back into clouds where I can see.
Searching for some vital Presence, this dream
A gift now saved by nothing less than grace.
How do I survive, come back, return from such dreams?
The answer seems to be, I do not…
Someone new, different has now awakened.
Each morning, I pause to learn my new name.